August 1st, 2004
|fallen_angelb77||12:33 am - [[angel]]|
I wake up and I can smell Angel..I look at the pillow and then shake my head. No its too strong.Like he was here while I was asleep. I get up and go to the closet and get dressed.I swear I hear someone walking around..but no. "Im losing my mind.."
Current Mood: crushed
I glair at Cordi, "Oh I will be...trust me. Soon I will have all of my family."
I smile at Cordi, "Do tell William hi...and that I will be waiting."
I walk in and go up the stairs and see Angel "I just need to talk to you..5 minutes is All I need.Its the least you owe me."
I turn and look and said "MAKE this quick.... I'm hungry and might mistake you as an appitizer"
I walk out into the hallway lean up against the wall and fold my arms looking at her
"First thing..I know Angel is in there..I've been through this before..except not pregnant and not married..I guess you forgot that part but Angel needs to know that I love him...This baby will know about the caring, loving man his father once was..If you'd prefer not to have anything to do with the baby..I'll tell him his father died..and this is yours." I put my hand out and give him back the ring "Dru could use it more than I could.." I paused and looked down waiting for him to speak
Something happens withing me and I look at Buffy my wife and hear she is pregant, and handed me the ring. "Buffy" I say weak looking into her hurt eyes with my hurt eyes, then I can feel the monster within me trying to come out. I hand her back her back her ring and whispered "you keep this.... and never forget me..... please don't forget me". Trying to fight to stay Angel I say in pain "you.... you need to go...... remember I..... I... love you" Then in an instant Angelus takes over glareing at her and say "get the fuck out slayer"
I close my eyes and give him the ring back "I dont want it..and I wont forget you ..." Tears stream down my face.
"You know your way out slayer" I say cold then turn and walk back into the bedroom locking the doors and look at Dru and say "I really should start locking the outside door.... these slayers..... are just like nats...... can't get rid of them"
I run and leave, sobbing with the ring still in my hand.I stop..thirsty for blood and spot adn innocent enough looking man. I try adn fight it..but I cant and I bite him. " sob after I feel ashamed..a slayer and a vampire in one..great.